Relieving Guilt

 Today i find myself grappling with a heavy burden the weight of guilt that settles in my chest like an anchor, dragging me down into a sea of self-doubt and remorse. It's a feeling that seems to consume me leaving me restless and unable to shake off the nagging thoughts that plague my mind. 

I made the decision to quit school, a decision born out of necessity rather than desire. Anxiety and depression had woven their tendrils deep into the fabric of my life, suffocating me with their relentless grip. Every day became a battle, a struggle just to get out of bed and face the world outside. The weight of expectation bore down on me like a crushing burden, and I found myself drowning in sea of overwhelming emotions. 

In the beginning, I tried to soldier on, convincing myself that i could push through the pain and emerge victorious on the other side. But as the days turned into weeks, and the weeks into months, it became increasingly clear that i was fighting a losing battle. My mental health deteriorated rapidly, and the simple act of attending classes became insurmountable challenge. 

And so, with a heavy heart and soul weighed down by guilt, i made the decision to step away from academia. It was a decision that filled with conflicting emotions relief at the prospect of escaping the suffocating grip of anxiety, yet tinged with a profound sense of failure and shame. Guilt gnawed at the edges of my consciousness, whispering cruelly that I was letting down not only myself but also those who had invested their time and faith in my academic journey.

Instead, I choose to focus on the small victories the moments of clarity amidst the chaos, the flickers of hope that pierce through the darkness. I remind myself that quitting school does not equate to failure, but rather an act of courage in the face of adversity. And though guilt may linger like a shadow, I refuse to let it define me.

For today, I take solace in the knowledge that I am taking the first steps towards reclaiming my life, one hesitant stride at a time. And as I navigate the tumultuous waters of uncertainty, I hold onto the belief that brighter days lie ahead, waiting to be discovered beyond the horizon of my fears.